justrun-.

some days i feel like -

today's one of those days. from the moment i woke up in the morning, i knew it was gonna be a bad day. my stomach felt awful from all the crap i ate over the weekend and my limbs felt swollen from i don't know what. it's like MRAHHH i have enough fats i don't need swellings to make my limbs look even bigger. so when i feel this awful my no. 1 friend is food. which really just makes things worse now doesn't it.

so at the end of the day i STILL feel like - and well.. i'd better do sth about it tmr or i will screw up my whole week.

THERE IS SO MUCH WORK TO BE DONE :"(

my head's in a mess. i don't know what's wrong with me.. things are all fuzzy again. i'm very confused why am i so.. urgh.

i just want to tear myself apart and start all over again. right from the beginning.. i HATE this. making me so so so so so ANNOYED AND ANGRY with myself. I DID IT ALL WRONGGGG. so many mistakes it's too late it's too late it's too late I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO GET IT ALL BACK AGAIN.

i'm too careless too foolish too weak and making all these mistakes doesn't seem to be making me any stronger i'm just as fragile and stupid as i was.

i feel the need to run at macritchie with jiaolian but i don't think that's going to happen.. given all the irritating disgusting circumstances i'm facing now. ARGHHHHHH.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [22:53]

and took [20071008] strides

it's the passion that drives you